Drama Queen in Wanderland

I will be making a new LJ account for reasons i'l enumerate below:

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• So I could create a more "mature" username. As I don't know if I could do that without making a new account.
• So ken would stop bothering me with my username.
• To create a fresh start
• To erase memories of anything associated with flings or ex's.

There ya go. I was planning to do this ages ago but I was too lazy to make it happen.

So long!

Boinkboinkbunny bids goodbye!

our supposedly 4-day vacation at la union magically turned into a week!
It was a blast! I enjoyed every second of it!!!

I guess if anyone would see me won't recognize me right now.
I felt like the golden goddess while taking a dip at San Juan.
Everyone who knows me well, basically know that I love the water.

... and I'm glad it loved me back :D

I'll be posting pictures later or tomorrow or whenever!!!

I am so glad to be back!!!!!!!!!!

Been bumming around the village most of the time.
I haven't posted our Laguna pictures yet but I will, as soon as I get home from La Union beybeh!

Yep! That's right! La Union! Wooooohhoooo!

Gonzo, Fidji, Krissel and I will be out to La union today at 4am and will be going back to Manila on Friday.
Too bad Pam O. will not be joining us on our Ilocos escapade.

haha! I was just ambushed by fidji yesterday and luckily, my parents allowed me to go.
I hope we could drop by Pagudpud, Vigan and Baguio.

Ciao!!!

**Someday I will be out travelling around the world!

Your Favorite Color Says You're Cheerful

Joyful --- Enthusiastic --- Optimistic Outgoing --- Accepting --- Confident Loud --- Unruly --- Impulsive

Your Guy Could Bring You Home

When it comes to meeting the parents, you're cool and calm. In fact, you're so self assured, you may forget to try to impress them. Work that famous charm a little more, and your boyfriend's family will be loving you.

You Are Quietly Passionate

You tend to be a very social person. You live for your friends and family. You can get social burnout occasionally though. You aren't a total extrovert. You fall in love with ease and confidence. Even if you've had bad experiences in the past, each new love is a reason to start completely over. You are a deep and contemplative person. You are as passionate as everyone else, but your passion is not always apparent. Your sense of humor is goofy and silly. You are good at making almost anyone laugh.

Pam O., Farah and I had our grad party last night at Mylo's crib.

The Gang:
Ken, Mylo, Ems, Fidji, Tik, Drew, Lalai, Gonzo, Jome, Kim

On the drinks menu:
Bar Gin, Antonov, Matador, RedHorse, Tope's Gin Mix that literally tastes like ice tea

The call time was 9pm, knowing us, we started at past 12 midnight.
Played a few drinking games until some where getting tipsy.
It was fun until...

*fast forwarding and skipping the violent events that happened*

My wrists hurt like hell and I have weird cuts on my hands which I couldn't remember where I got.
All I can remember was the anger that I felt.

I never knew I was capable of feeling so much hate.
I thought I could just forget about it as I slept.
But the aftershock of the things that got out of hand last night left nothing but gloom.

Oh well... I'm glad that last night wasn't all bad.
It all had to come to and end and good to know that people enjoyed.

after almost a week after graduating from college, I finally got back to LJ-ing. (I guess boredom gets my writing juices going)
Tomorrow... errr later would be my first job interview (for a graphic artist position) at affinity express.

Looking back at our "Graduation Day", which wasn't exactly a memorable one. All I did was wish for it to end.
The prolonged graduation practices spoiled the jitters and excitement.
There were some laughs, sentimental-shit, and some tears care of Ms. Prime.
What I missed most that moment was Yna. And until now I miss her. :( (Especially when I'v read her msg at facebook that she misses her blockmates and college friends)

Oh well... I guess everything sank in to me just today.

I'll definitely miss 19 people I've been very much attached to for a short time yet it felt long enough for me to get sucked into this emotional vortex I'm in right now.

Struggling my way back to sanity, maybe I should find something new and "productive" to do to keep my mind wandering off things.

Moving on, Ken's bff Myki gave me my 3rd threadless shirt called "Go Japan!". It's in red and it's long enough to wear on leggings.
I can't thank Myki enough for remembering me whenever she's set to go back to the phils.


Hmm... Updating myself,

• I saw that hannah still spams LJ with her quotes and entries from the writer's block
• Ate Jen is still addicted to LJ, especially now that she has A LOT of time to satisfy her guilty pleasure
• Haven't heard much from cy... No latest entries
• I learned from ja's entry that the hell street of vito cruz is finally on its finishing touches
• No entries from paning either

Saving myself the hassle of approving countless friend requests, replying to personal msgs and reading latest updates from socialnetworkingsites.com, I am still keeping my fingers from typing my username and password at multiply and friendster.

That's about everything, FOR NOW! >:)
ciao!

It has been quite a while since i last posted in this blog.
I have been too busy with deadlines, requirements, schedules, etc. that I almost forgot to get a life.
Everything passes by so fast but ironically all in slow motion that I can see all the details.

I am afraid to grow old and have my life pass me by because of "being too busy".

I've done something I'm not proud of and that is to shove away someone who's been there with me
through thick and thin for the past years.

Stress has been eating away my patience and sanity.
And I have been trying so hard to balance things but it kept on tipping on one side.
I feel like my world is closing in on me.

Deadlines seemed too ambitious to even start.

I hope all goes well the next few days..

LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATER:	Batman: The Dark Knight
WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW:	By the river piedra, I sat down and wept
FAVORITE BOARD GAME:	scrabble
FAVORITE MAGAZINE:	ish magazine
FAVORITE SMELLS:	Fruity, Vanilla
COMFORT FOOD:	california maki
FAVORITE SOUNDS:	House, Trance, Reggae
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD:	feeling that you couldn't do anything to control a situation and make the pain go away
FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE:	McDonalds
FUTURE CHILD'S NAME:	Haven't thought of it yet, but i'm sure it wouldn't be near the name "Megatron"
FINISH THIS STATEMENT: "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY, I WOULD":	effin' buy or invest in a business. but first, I would take a cruise to the carribeans or a flight to europe
DO YOU DRIVE FAST:	when i'm angry i guess
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL:	ditched doing that ages ago
STORMS -- COOL OR SCARY:	"or"
WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR:	i have none yet...
FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK:	Long Island
FINISH THIS STATEMENT,'IF I HAD THE TIME, I WOULD LOVE TO':	Go for a ride and take anyone who wants to go with me
DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI:	nope
IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE:	it would either of these three: Neon pink, neon green or purple
GLASS HALF-EMPTY OR FULL:	half- empty
HOW MANY CITIES/TOWNS HAVE YOU LIVED IN:	3
FAVORITE PLACE TO RELAX:	taking an afternoon siesta on a hammock by the sea
FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH:	soccer
WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED:	floor.
TOILET PAPER/ PAPER TOWEL--OVER OR UNDER:	what's this suppose to mean
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

As pam o. said in her friendster shout out, "Have a scorching 2009 ahead"
I am not having a scorching 2009, but I AM A SCORCHING 2009 AHEAD.

I can feel this year will pass like a breeze.

I wasn't able to satisfy my blogging needs due to stressful deadlines and other school related activities.
Well, at least i've crossed out events, midterm, thesis (well partly), play review, filipino finals on my undending list of things to do.

HOORAY!! today, Ken and I are celebrating our 3rd year and one month together!! *confetti*
I am just so happy and overwhelmed. I never imagined we'll come this far.
Oh well, I hope it doesn't end here.

Since I had a blast today and I've got nothing else to say, this entry will just be as short as this.

Though I've given up making new years resolutions jurassic years ago, I feel fulfilled after satisfying old hobbies.

Well... I got into reading again.
and... I've gone photoshopping again! wooohooo!
Thanks to our event, I've rekindled my little flame of creativity.



Got my inspiration last night, we were all talking about fairy tales and disney princesses.
I've always dreamed of me being one, and so now I could be! :D

I've started typing this entry at exactly 6:07 am. 7 minutes has passed after ken left.
Spending 3 years and a few weeks of being in a relationship with him never changed the fact that I feel so bad having to say goodbye
and see him walk away knowing that we both have to wait for another week 'til we see each other again.

I know all good things must come to and end.

I can still feel the warm hug of his arms around me. We were just sleeping a while ago.
Quoting a line from pushing daisies which is obviously my favorite:

"You're like my Phantom Limb,
When you're not around It's as
if you're still attached to me" - Ned to Chuck

that wasn't the exact words though, but at least I remember the thought.

It's really hard to be in a relationship wherein you live far like boundaries-of-completely-opposite-side-of-the-map-apart.

We struggle to keep sane when we miss each other.
We try our best to understand.
At times, we try to fight our own frustrations.


The sun went up late today. just about 6:30 am.
This was the same time I woke up yesterday to wait for ken.

The feelings I feel every time we're going to see each other.
Has never changed.
I still feel too excited knowing that I'll see him in a few hours.
I still feel so happy spending a day with him.
I still feel too sad saying goodbye when it's time for him to leave.

I love ken. And I have been loving him for quite a period of time now.
What's not to love about him anyway?
I think I won't get tired of feeling so much love towards him.

Until God Knows When...

I wonder where my brother got that smug face from?

2008 has passed like a breeze.

With THESIS eating me alive, I was too busy to take a stop over and do a "memory-worthy" check on the events that happened.
But then again, I have a decent amount of hours left to recall things before I finally wave my hand goodbye to 2008.

2008 was already starting and I was too busy minding practicum to let it sink in on me. Oh yes! that dreadful practicum...
There was this vacation at la union. Now I remember. June's up and we're all going HSM3: Senior Year now (though we're not in high school anymore).

Well... Thesis really ate almost all my social life this year. But thanks to Ken and his visits, Birthdays, and tambays I get to take a VERY short break from all the stress.

Happy Birthday to me, I am officially not a teen anymore... and I'm certainly not looking forward on my next birthday.

Thesis was partially finished just in time for us to take our short-lived pseudo holiday vacation.

Oh well... There were good laughs, few tears, some hate, reconciliation, achievements, loss and cross-roads.
It was a good year... and I am hoping it will get better each time.

SO LONG 2008, IT HAS BEEN A BLAST.

Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post a line from the first 30 songs that play.
Step 3: When someone guesses both artist and song correctly, replace the lyrics with his/her name.
Step 4: Looking the lyrics up on Google or any other search engine is considered CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game post your own!


1. Amber is the color of your energy
2. And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around
3. No, Happily Never After that just ain't for me.
4. The world slows down but my heart beats fast right now
5. Please don't worry bout me I'm fine </a></b></a>kyliewales
6. The way you move is a mystery
7. nothing feels right when im not with you </a></b></a>kyliewales
8. I've been wishing on a star, I could never have imagined
9. Are you calling me darling? </a></b></a>kyliewales
10. Desperately trying to speak the words I've been wanting to say for a long time. </a></b></a>kyliewales

11. I've got so much love in my heart no one can tear it apart
12. Im waiting for that final moment you'll say the words that I can't say </a></b></a>kyliewales
13. and my music keeps going on it makes my life complete
14. Sweet reunion, jamaica and spain
15. I want to hold you close skin pressed against me tight
16. No one's calling for me out the door
17. You you you are, you you you are </a></b></a>kyliewales
18. Long as you got me you won't need nobody </a></b></a>kyliewales
19. Sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko </a></b></a>kyliewales
20. If you are what you say you are a superstar </a></b></a>kyliewales

21. It's not what i'm used to, I just want to try it on
22. But baby, can we make up now 'cause I can't sleep through the pain
23. cause two can't keep a secret if one of them is dead
24. No one ugly allowed
25. making love to you was never second best
26. I'm in love with you the way I wanted to </a></b></a>kyliewales
27. Nothing's gonna change my world </a></b></a>kyliewales
28. Now I'm falling asleep, and she's calling a cab </a></b></a>kyliewales
29. I have a headache in my chest from all the chaos that you left
30. When you’re on a golden sea you don’t need no memory </a></b></a>kyliewales

especially when I'm forced to smile after opening a gift with a DSLR inside it.

Say hello to [insert name here]!!!

                           

Ohhhhhhhhhh I can't wait to find a perfect name for "her". (at least i've already decided on what gender should it be)

So I ran some test shots today and here are some of the pictures:

 
comments are highly appreciated wahahaha!!!

Oh well... I got a DSLR from mom and dad!! hoooooray!!! *confetti*

But then I realized just now, no material thing can ever substitute for true happiness.

This is the first christmas eve where I cried.

I feel so down and disappointed.
Someone whom so important to me pushed me into the pit of sadness. (On a Christmas Eve! WTF right?!)

Well, I guess I'll just get myself busy fiddling with my new camera.

Seriously? I will never have a decent holiday this Christmas, but then I can't help but give in to holiday mindset.


Well, I guess nothing fun has happened to me after spending 3 days at the hospital.
Good thing a Christmas party came up.

I put myself through a last minute Christmas shopping yesterday.
I bought gifts for my sibs and my mom.
Oh well, I wish they would appreciate it. After all, it's the thought that counts right?

In return *smug face*, I wish I would have something worth my effort opening. 
Besides, I have been all hard-working for my thesis. Nothing is ever worth me and cy's effort but graduation haha!

Well, there are a lot of things going on inside my head right now.

After Christmas, what now?
I'll be going back to work mode, doing our tickets and poster design for our arts and culture event.
I'll be meeting up with cy to revise our thesis before the end of the month.
Then there's New Year...
Enough of New Year for now. *draws an imaginary THICK line between Christmas and New Year*

I feel frustrated for some reason I don't know.
Maybe because,
I wasn't able to buy a gift for Ken. (maybe i'l do that after christmas)
I wasn't able to make a cake for later because there aren't enough ingredients available at the groceries.
I feel like this is the more of a borefest than a christmas celebration.

but since Christmas is just hours away, may I take this opportunity to greet all of you...

A MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

whew!

I finally rose from the valley of feverland.
t'was the most excrutiating 5 days of my life.

Just when I thought thesis is over (well, not totally over.), I can enjoy the luxury of
eating out with my PJ-mates on a saturday night with a pitcher of margarita and beer.
I couldn't entirely enjoy it because of the fever I have.

The next day, I was already having chills I couldn't even stand up.
Unfortunately, my mom has to be rushed to the hospital because her ECG results showed irregularities in her heartbeat.
We both stayed at the hospital for 3 days.
Thank God I only have UTI and my mom was spared from going through andiogram.

Moving on, Thank you to the bestest friends I will ever have for a wonderful christmas party last saturday night.
Though they were all happy drinking liquor, I was at the corner chugging down a bottle of water. haha!


Fun exchange of gifts!

• Farah got her elf make-up and a belt from Emily
• Emily got a red dress from Blas
• Blas got a boxers from Mylo
• Mylo got a koosh ball from Ken
• Ken got a cap from Andrew
• Andrew got a pack of cigarettes from Aina
• Aina got a ?? (I forgot, she was late)
• Fidji got a bag from Farah
• Cathy got a pillow from Me
• And I got a strawberry soap from Cathy

Food:

• Lechon Manok
• Liempo
• Chicken Sisig
• Pork Sisig
• Spaghetti
• Cake

I finally got to drive our car! wooooh! I will be driving our car for now because my mom couldn't.
Oh well, at least my family will be able to enjoy the holidays now that we are all well. :)

Apart from experiencing a lot of stress and pressure from my thesis defense which will be this wednesday,
there are so many things that frustrates me.

I am so done getting frustrated over and over again.

I just wish I don't have feelings. literally.
I just wish I don't care
I just wish I'm brave enough to do whatever will make me happy
I just wish I'm strong enough to just walk away from you
I just wish you'd understand

You think I'm selfish for wishing all these things, but you're not in my shoes to feel everything I do.

I am so tired of trying to make you understand that this is all I can handle.
I am so tired of begging you to help me stand up.
I am so tired of trying to make stop.

I hate myself for realizing how much I depended on you lately.
I hate myself from trying to ask help from you, when you refuse to.
I hate myself for crying over you.

You crushed my bones one by one,
now I don't have any left.

Just when I needed you the most, you shut your doors closed.


I WANT TO BE NUMB,
SO NUMB YOU WOULDN'T WANT ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD
BUT FOR ME TO FEEL AGAIN.

Goodevening blogmates. :)
I'm in a good mood today. (Though I must regulate the happiness inside, 'cause I haven't experienced the worst before xmas break is finally declared)

I finally had a decent sleep last night.

I wasn't late for my mass media and society class. hooray! (I've been observing myself and I realized that I say the word "hooray" more times than the usual now. Hooray for my new favorite word.)

Well... Sir chally dismissed us an hour earlier.
Thanks to him me and my PJ-mates had enough time to prepare a surprise birthday scheme for Ms. Prime.

"Lord Pam" and I went to buy cake while "Lord Jen Chan" and Paning bought a birthday card.
After all the preparations, we hid ourselves at the fire exit and waited for Ms. Prime to discover our hideout.

"happy birthday" to our favorite professor! You are indeed the bestest among the restest!
Print Journ wouldn't be PJ without you!

And so after an hour or so of discussion, we went to the faculty room to eat the cake and bond (since the faculty room was left for us to share and bond for the rest of the period).
I was happy to see how our class get along so well.

After that, Hannah asked us to come with her to zen tea. (she was so gaga over "Nai Chee" haha!)


Thanks to that "Cult trance song" we were laughing the whole time.
I can't keep myself from hiding how nervous I feel about the defense.
Ooooops thoughts vomit. Sorry about the randomness.

Well...
Congratulations to our mates who proudly got an A- for their thesis defense.
And as to Jaja, you don't know how proud I am to know you've done so well on your defense. I knew it was a was a wise choice for you to make. love ya!


And as to Me, Cy, Lord Chan, Emily, and Rish...
GOODLUCK TO US! I HOPE FOR THE BEST! AND I KNOW WE CAN ALL MAKE IT THROUGH!